NAME: Grimm CONTACT: PM or moryana AVERSIONS: Eye & teeth gore, pregnancy as horror, non-con
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CHARACTER NAME: Ilya Rozanov CANON: Heated Rivalry CANON POINT: Season 1, Episode 6 TOKEN: A single thin golden chain necklace with Russian Orthodox crucifix.
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SUMMARY:
CW: SUICIDE
Ilya grew up in Russia to a high-ranking police officer father, a stay-at-home mother and an older brother who took after their father. From a young age, he was a mama's boy and this made things difficult for both his mother and himself living in a house with a very traditional man for a father who say anything but traditional masculinity from his son as a weakness. He showed an aptitude for hockey, which meant he was going to play it professionally once his father realised his son could make a living for his family through this talent.
Ilya mother died by suicide when he was twelve and he was the one to find her. His father downplayed what happened, citing it as an accident and forbidding Ilya from speaking about it. Feelings were a sign of weakness. Hockey truly became Ilya's escape after this, where he saw it as a means to get out of Russia and away from his father and older brother who was becoming like his father every day.
At eighteen, the international hockey world had their eyes on Ilya and he had his eyes on the MHL (or the NHL if you're not from his world!) He was drafted to play for the Boston Raiders at eighteen, his year's #1 draft pick and his father still called him lazy. Moving to America and gaining fame in his sport, Ilya became a fan of fast cars, partying, and the sort of playboy lifestyle connected to young athletes. All the while sending money back home to take care of his brother's family and their father as he developed dementia. All the while, he started to hook up with his rival-on-the-ice, Shane Hollander.
It all lead to a nearly decade long situationship, with ups, downs, and poor communication. But with Shane, Ilya learned what it was like to have someone who cared about him again beyond what he could do for them. He found an equal and, though it took nearly ten years, learned how to not fear opening his heart when that love could have been seen as a weakness or perversion by his family, by Russia, by hockey. He learned what it meant to have something worth fighting for, that losing his country and a family that hated him for who he loved was worth the person he gained.
CALLING:
While he's a great hockey player, Ilya doesn't truly love hockey. It's not his calling. What he wants in life, what he truly wants, is to be loved unconditionally. After his mother's death, love was something he had to pay for by being the best at hockey, by paying for everything for a family who claimed he abandoned them to play hockey while they lived in luxury off of his paycheck, by being the perfect son to a father with impossible standards.
When he stops fearing that wanting something for himself, particularly Shane, isn't worth the danger of losing his home country or dealing with his family's wrath, he puts them and the idea of having this unconditional love above all else and is willing the give up the comfortable life he has for it.
VALUES:
Ilya values community above everything. He doesn't let people in easily but when he does, he tries to build a space where they're taken care of (providing food, care, clothing and anything else his family asked of him) and making them feel safe (ensuring Shane is comfortable -- figuring out his favorite foods, how to calm him down when he's having a panic attack or ensuring he knows how to accommodate Shane's autism without really knowing what it is.)
He's protective of his team and quick to show affection to them with an 'I love you, good job' after a good game. He's also quick to fight anyone who threatens them like a guard-dog breaking off its chain. While a lot of this is to ensure that they keep him around, it's also because he feels that people cannot survive alone and need love in their lives. He's simply trying to also show he's worthy of that love in return.
FLAWS:
Ilya's got plenty of vices. He avoids and internalises his emotions, feeling like he can't display them or he'll be seen as weak. He drinks, he smokes, he fucks to distract himself from the self-doubt and depression that swirl in his head. He's quick to anger, enjoys a fight and getting underneath people's skin. He's the sort of hockey player who's quick to take off his gloves or slam someone into the boards. He likes when people call him an asshole, as long as it's not the people that he cares about.
With people he cares about, he's willing to do anything to make sure they're okay but at the same time constantly afraid that their affection is dependent on him being strong and being able to provide. Which means he's rarely emotionally vulnerable or willing to be open. This is a fear built in by both the toxic masculinity of Putin's Russia and that of the hockey world. With Shane, it takes ten years for him to talk to the man about his family or open up about his mother's death because he fears it'll make Shane judge his mother as weak and Ilya as too sensitive for still being affected by her death.
FEARS:
Ilya's biggest fear is that his father was right and he's not worthy of love. As a result, he is both desperate to prove himself to the people he cares about and building walls around himself not to get hurt. He'll lash out and cut deep, then disappear when he feels vulnerable. It lead him to disappearing on Shane, ignoring him after he'd felt he was too vulnerable or falling too deep in love, over the course of their hookups.
MOTIFS:
CW: IMAGERY OF SUICIDE, HOMOPHOBIC SLUR
A golden Russian orthodox crucifix, lilies rotting, a grey city landscape with skyscrapers rising out of the snow-covered streets, the figure of a woman laying in a bed with her limp arm hanging over the side, pills scattered on the floor, strobing lights in a nightclub, dark clouds rolling in and covering the sun, a mans voice sneering -- not all of us are whiny fags who abandon their family and can't even send a little money home, a woman humming a russian lullaby, the smell of vodka and sweat, dark rooms with the walls closing in, emptiness.
BONDS:
IRINA ROZANOVA: Ilya's mother. The one person who made Ilya feel safe when he was growing up. She lost a fight to depression and a demanding husband who never saw her as a person. Ilya found her. GRIGORI ROZANOV: Ilya's father, a high-ranking police officer and a complicated figure in his life. Ilya feared his father and wanted to make him proud, to hear a compliment instead of being called lazy even when he was the MHL's #1 draft pick his year. That never came. Even as he took care of his father as the man slipped to dementia. ALEXEI ROZANOV: Ilya's older brother, who followed his father into a career in the police force. They don't get along, with Alexei suspecting the truth about Ilya's sexuality and using that against him to fund a cocaine habit and live a luxurious lifestyle. SHANE HOLLANDER: A situationship turned more. A man that Ilya wanted from the first moment he saw him at eighteen and kept wanting when everything about that was a bad idea. The love of his life. SVETLANA VETROVA: His best friend and the only family he has left once he decides to leave Russia. A sister, a love of a different kind. RUSSIA: His homeland and the place that would turn on him if they knew who he really was, despite all the glory he's brought to the country. He's willing to leave it behind but that doesn't mean it doesn't hurt.
SERVITOR:
Ilya's servitor is a manifestation of his own depression and sense of worthlessness.
DESCRIPTION: At first, the Rusalka looks simply like a young woman with long, wavy, golden hair that hits her ankles and sad, pale blue eyes. She wears no clothes but thin silver chains that drape and wrap over her body. If one doesn't look too close, she nearly looks alive. But when one gets too close they notice that her skin is not pale but deadly white, that it rots and falls away from the bones of her arms as she moves and dances. At first it seems like she's spent too much time in the water, that she's rotted from time in the depths but as she dries her skin peels from the bones that keep moving like paper that turns into ash. She doesn't seem to notice as she glides through a room, leaving wet footsteps behind.
BEHAVIOR: The Rusalka does not speak at first. She sings pretty songs, the sort that nearly sound like words but her victims hear them as if they're just out of reach. She slips into rooms, dancing and singing with a gentle smile on her lips. And then she wails, throwing herself at her victims and holding on tight until the chains draped around her body wrap around them and squeeze tight, until the icy chill of her wet skin steals their warmth as her skin turns to black ooze and the sharp edges of her bones try to piece living flesh like they aim to become part of whoever she's holding.
And that is what the Rusalka wants. To become one, to be all emcompassing, to take her victim into the darkness that has eaten her up from the inside.
ABILITIES:
A feeling of cold, damp, heaviness: The rooms she moves into grow cold, grow damp. The air feels as if there is a heaviness and her victims find themselves feeling as if the air grows thicker at first. More time in her presences brings the feeling of drowning. Trying to huddle in toward oneself brings relief but also the idea that the less space one takes up, the better.
A familiar voice: She may not speak but as she starts to turn to ooze and meld with her victims, the Rusalkas wails start to sound like a familiar inner dialogue. She takes on the voice of her victims and says all the ugly parts aloud - She talks of worthlessness, of fear, of falling short.
A chain of events: The chains that the Rusalka wears are part of her - sentiant and alive. They move like snakes and bind tighter the harder one struggles. It's almost best not to struggle at all. After all, are they even worth the effort?
WEAKNESS: Bright lights, insults to her physical form, garlic, wormwood, warmth.
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Date: 2026-01-13 01:27 am (UTC)NAME: Grimm
CONTACT: PM or
AVERSIONS: Eye & teeth gore, pregnancy as horror, non-con
CHARACTER NAME: Ilya Rozanov
CANON: Heated Rivalry
CANON POINT: Season 1, Episode 6
TOKEN: A single thin golden chain necklace with Russian Orthodox crucifix.
CW: SUICIDE
Ilya grew up in Russia to a high-ranking police officer father, a stay-at-home mother and an older brother who took after their father. From a young age, he was a mama's boy and this made things difficult for both his mother and himself living in a house with a very traditional man for a father who say anything but traditional masculinity from his son as a weakness. He showed an aptitude for hockey, which meant he was going to play it professionally once his father realised his son could make a living for his family through this talent.
Ilya mother died by suicide when he was twelve and he was the one to find her. His father downplayed what happened, citing it as an accident and forbidding Ilya from speaking about it. Feelings were a sign of weakness. Hockey truly became Ilya's escape after this, where he saw it as a means to get out of Russia and away from his father and older brother who was becoming like his father every day.
At eighteen, the international hockey world had their eyes on Ilya and he had his eyes on the MHL (or the NHL if you're not from his world!) He was drafted to play for the Boston Raiders at eighteen, his year's #1 draft pick and his father still called him lazy. Moving to America and gaining fame in his sport, Ilya became a fan of fast cars, partying, and the sort of playboy lifestyle connected to young athletes. All the while sending money back home to take care of his brother's family and their father as he developed dementia. All the while, he started to hook up with his rival-on-the-ice, Shane Hollander.
It all lead to a nearly decade long situationship, with ups, downs, and poor communication. But with Shane, Ilya learned what it was like to have someone who cared about him again beyond what he could do for them. He found an equal and, though it took nearly ten years, learned how to not fear opening his heart when that love could have been seen as a weakness or perversion by his family, by Russia, by hockey. He learned what it meant to have something worth fighting for, that losing his country and a family that hated him for who he loved was worth the person he gained.
While he's a great hockey player, Ilya doesn't truly love hockey. It's not his calling. What he wants in life, what he truly wants, is to be loved unconditionally. After his mother's death, love was something he had to pay for by being the best at hockey, by paying for everything for a family who claimed he abandoned them to play hockey while they lived in luxury off of his paycheck, by being the perfect son to a father with impossible standards.
When he stops fearing that wanting something for himself, particularly Shane, isn't worth the danger of losing his home country or dealing with his family's wrath, he puts them and the idea of having this unconditional love above all else and is willing the give up the comfortable life he has for it.
Ilya values community above everything. He doesn't let people in easily but when he does, he tries to build a space where they're taken care of (providing food, care, clothing and anything else his family asked of him) and making them feel safe (ensuring Shane is comfortable -- figuring out his favorite foods, how to calm him down when he's having a panic attack or ensuring he knows how to accommodate Shane's autism without really knowing what it is.)
He's protective of his team and quick to show affection to them with an 'I love you, good job' after a good game. He's also quick to fight anyone who threatens them like a guard-dog breaking off its chain. While a lot of this is to ensure that they keep him around, it's also because he feels that people cannot survive alone and need love in their lives. He's simply trying to also show he's worthy of that love in return.
Ilya's got plenty of vices. He avoids and internalises his emotions, feeling like he can't display them or he'll be seen as weak. He drinks, he smokes, he fucks to distract himself from the self-doubt and depression that swirl in his head. He's quick to anger, enjoys a fight and getting underneath people's skin. He's the sort of hockey player who's quick to take off his gloves or slam someone into the boards. He likes when people call him an asshole, as long as it's not the people that he cares about.
With people he cares about, he's willing to do anything to make sure they're okay but at the same time constantly afraid that their affection is dependent on him being strong and being able to provide. Which means he's rarely emotionally vulnerable or willing to be open. This is a fear built in by both the toxic masculinity of Putin's Russia and that of the hockey world. With Shane, it takes ten years for him to talk to the man about his family or open up about his mother's death because he fears it'll make Shane judge his mother as weak and Ilya as too sensitive for still being affected by her death.
Ilya's biggest fear is that his father was right and he's not worthy of love. As a result, he is both desperate to prove himself to the people he cares about and building walls around himself not to get hurt. He'll lash out and cut deep, then disappear when he feels vulnerable. It lead him to disappearing on Shane, ignoring him after he'd felt he was too vulnerable or falling too deep in love, over the course of their hookups.
CW: IMAGERY OF SUICIDE, HOMOPHOBIC SLUR
A golden Russian orthodox crucifix, lilies rotting, a grey city landscape with skyscrapers rising out of the snow-covered streets, the figure of a woman laying in a bed with her limp arm hanging over the side, pills scattered on the floor, strobing lights in a nightclub, dark clouds rolling in and covering the sun, a mans voice sneering -- not all of us are whiny fags who abandon their family and can't even send a little money home, a woman humming a russian lullaby, the smell of vodka and sweat, dark rooms with the walls closing in, emptiness.
IRINA ROZANOVA: Ilya's mother. The one person who made Ilya feel safe when he was growing up. She lost a fight to depression and a demanding husband who never saw her as a person. Ilya found her.
GRIGORI ROZANOV: Ilya's father, a high-ranking police officer and a complicated figure in his life. Ilya feared his father and wanted to make him proud, to hear a compliment instead of being called lazy even when he was the MHL's #1 draft pick his year. That never came. Even as he took care of his father as the man slipped to dementia.
ALEXEI ROZANOV: Ilya's older brother, who followed his father into a career in the police force. They don't get along, with Alexei suspecting the truth about Ilya's sexuality and using that against him to fund a cocaine habit and live a luxurious lifestyle.
SHANE HOLLANDER: A situationship turned more. A man that Ilya wanted from the first moment he saw him at eighteen and kept wanting when everything about that was a bad idea. The love of his life.
SVETLANA VETROVA: His best friend and the only family he has left once he decides to leave Russia. A sister, a love of a different kind.
RUSSIA: His homeland and the place that would turn on him if they knew who he really was, despite all the glory he's brought to the country. He's willing to leave it behind but that doesn't mean it doesn't hurt.
Ilya's servitor is a manifestation of his own depression and sense of worthlessness.
DESCRIPTION: At first, the Rusalka looks simply like a young woman with long, wavy, golden hair that hits her ankles and sad, pale blue eyes. She wears no clothes but thin silver chains that drape and wrap over her body. If one doesn't look too close, she nearly looks alive. But when one gets too close they notice that her skin is not pale but deadly white, that it rots and falls away from the bones of her arms as she moves and dances. At first it seems like she's spent too much time in the water, that she's rotted from time in the depths but as she dries her skin peels from the bones that keep moving like paper that turns into ash. She doesn't seem to notice as she glides through a room, leaving wet footsteps behind.
BEHAVIOR: The Rusalka does not speak at first. She sings pretty songs, the sort that nearly sound like words but her victims hear them as if they're just out of reach. She slips into rooms, dancing and singing with a gentle smile on her lips. And then she wails, throwing herself at her victims and holding on tight until the chains draped around her body wrap around them and squeeze tight, until the icy chill of her wet skin steals their warmth as her skin turns to black ooze and the sharp edges of her bones try to piece living flesh like they aim to become part of whoever she's holding.
And that is what the Rusalka wants. To become one, to be all emcompassing, to take her victim into the darkness that has eaten her up from the inside.
ABILITIES:
WEAKNESS: Bright lights, insults to her physical form, garlic, wormwood, warmth.