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[coldcock]

𝚌𝚊𝚕𝚕. 𝚝𝚎𝚡𝚝.

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[janehollander]

[ Shane knows something deep has shifted inside of him when he doesn't feel like spending the night with Ilya in that hotel room was a big mistake. He should be freaking out, knowing that they just laid there in bed together, curled up in each other's arms and simply slept, instead of having sex.

Somehow that seems even worse. It's something they can't have, shouldn't have. It scares the absolutely shit out of Shane. But it still doesn't feel like a mistake.

Rose must realize it too, because a few weeks later she breaks up with him, and that's when Shane really freaks out. She knows. Not about Ilya, but about him, and for the first time, he doesn't deny it. After that, the anxiety fraying the edges of his nerves shifts to something more like relief.

Two weeks after that, the Montreal Metros are set to play the Boston Raiders.]

[penaltybox]

you look so good in my hoodie

[janehollander]

I'll pick you up at the airport when you land. 10:05am right?

[mumbles]

[ Shane writes, deletes, writes, deletes. Small novels worth of drafts only to land on: ]

Are you invited to that benefit in New York next month?

[ Another fundraiser, another occasion to shake hands and smile for cameras, but maybe, maybe—

It's a worthwhile cause, they all are, but it'll be a long, overwhelming night. Though if it gets him and Ilya in a room four weeks ahead of schedule, Shane will happily bear an entire evening of small talk and hand-shaking. ]

what if messy early situationship things

[mumbles]

You're late.

[ Is only true in the very vaguest sense of the word. The exchanged room numbers, said after the game, and it is admittedly a very broad window. It is still after the game.

But Shane has been pacing around his hotel room for what feels like an eternity, and he doesn't want to tip his hand, admit anything too revealing, but what if, what if, what if— ]